meh

Love that word "meh" it so full of emotions. Not the kind of emotions that make you cry or laugh or fall in love, the kind of emotions that make you want to stay in bed all day, the kind of emotions that come in to play when you drop a grilled cheese sandwich on the kitchen floor and pick it up and eat it anyway. That's "meh" that's what I'm talking about. It's kind of like "oh well" but really that doesn't even come close to encompassing all that is "meh". "Oh well" is resigned and singular, "meh" on the other hand can be the most defiant word spoken at the table or an off handed remark made after you spilled water on the crotch of your khakis. "Meh" is mostly about perspective and strength not nessecarily resignation or apathy. Example:

Guy 1-"Hey man, it's too bad that you broke up with Jill."

Mike S.-"Meh."

Guy 1-"Yeah, you're right."


Yeah, I know where my manuscript needs a fixin'. I already added a "tense" scene between Jan and Marli that I hope shows a real conflict. I am working on removing the Ahmzad completely from the the manuscript (so those of you who got a glimpse of that hardy and taciturn race consider yourselves lucky). P.S. you're not supposed to like Jan at the beginning, he's not good, has no redeeming qualities. Haven't we all met people like that? Um, grammar I understand. Not enough commas too many periods. I get it, easy to fix. Ah, I need to rework some of the betrayal elements as far as Cyrus and Sophia go. Cyrus is getting a new scene. I'm going to be cutting alot of the "nice to know" travelogue stuff and adding more dialog between characters. I'm going to try to give the world a little better sense of time. That's something I really want to get into in the next book.

Reoccuring characters that don't do much. Well, since this is a trilogy I hope to be able to work everyone in. Yeah, I know I introduced alot of people in the first manuscript but I kill a few of them off too, eh? Ellis Drake and his father I need to work out something there regarding their feud. Also Lars Buldin, I just kinda introduced him and then killed him in the Transformation Experiment. Lord Mobus, need to expand his character quite a bit.

The Jade Throne I am stuck on. I have to be honest. My description of this chair and reason for it to be in the manuscript is murky at best. Its use is even murkier. I really have to get something hammered out. Something solid. It's in the finale of the book and is an instrument in the destruction of a Council Member. I think I'll need to make it a religious artifact. But there has to be a better explained key to unlocking its power.

Overall I feel the manuscript is missing something. Thus the scores from the contest judges. I think they were acurate. Polish? More hutspah? The kaibosh?! I'm not at the level I want to be at yet. I know, it'll come. That's what they all say and they're probably right. It takes alot of time though. Anyone out there who wants to write a book, particularly a novel. Unless you can give all your time to it be prepared. Life keeps getting in my way.

Meh.