-The Pistons, what can I say? They will win the series but I can't help but get the feeling I had during last year's Cleveland series. Frustrating to watch.
-WSG last night was the most fun I've had on the ole compy in a while. The guys kept me up til 1am on a school night! That's how fun it was!
-Waiting for school to end is like waiting for your work day to be over with 20 minutes left on your shift. You keep looking at the clock and looking at the clock and the minutes seem like hours. Well, these days seem like weeks. But, I'm not complaining.
-Man am I tired. I just dozed off there for a sec...stupid WSG. heh.
-I like things simple. I like truths like, love God with all your heart, soul and strength and love your neighbor as yourself. Simple, encompasses a world of truth and yet is easily understood by me. Also, "Be ye kind one to another..." no PhD needed. "Ah," some say, "that's Sunday school kids stuff." I say those are the building blocks of my faith and the most important things I can remember throughout my day because those truths encompass my entire world view.
Here's another one. If you are a child of God then God wants the best for you all the time every time. He didn't even spare his Son. That's what keep me from being bitter when I think of my younger brother drowning in the ocean while I was hundreds of miles away powerless. God always loves me, He always wants what is best for me. We all go through things, horrible things, things so terrible we never imagined them. When my brother died I experienced my worst nightmare. Seriously, when I thought, "What could be the worst thing to happen to me?" that is what I thought of, my brother dying. And it happened. So then what? I couldn't figure out why God would want to make my life worse by taking him away. And after a long time I came to the realization that he was never mine. So I say I will see him soon and I say that God's ways are higher than my ways, the pot doesn't ask the potter, "why did you make me like this?" and the Lord gives and the Lord takes away, blessed be His name.
But those aren't cliches to me, they aren't Sunday schoool memory work, they're my life.
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I can't imagine your pain, Matt. Although I have suffered loss, like you said, we all do, Dan passing was...
I'm sorry, bro, and I miss him too.
I'm glad you are working your way through things, and enjoying those simple truths.
Right now I am going through so much that I never imagined, too. It makes me wonder some times, and I wonder if I should wonder, and what good wondering does, you know?
I'm not trying to figure anything out, like why or why not? I want to know how to be human and live wholly through this...
I love you, bro.
You and Dan were always more like older brothers than uncles. It was the worst day of my life; I can't fathom how much harder it must have been on you.
There is so much comfort in knowing for certain that we will see him again; I don't know how those who are not saved can bear things like this. But our God is good. Thank you for writing this, Matt.
I remeber when Dan died, I had nine missed call and when I called home to fing out what was wrong they would'nt tell me. I drove an hour home wondering and never thought of Dan. I still get a feeling of helplessness deep inside when I think about it. I drive by the cemetary and think of him often. As I write this I get choked up. Thank God for the family we have hear and the family we have in heaven.
I'm glad you wrote this post. I've always wanted to say so much, but didn't know how to bring it up. Now that the time has come I'm having a hard time finding the words.
I've always been very regretful and sorry that I didn't go to the funeral. I never wanted you to think that by my not going that I wasn't affected or that I didn't care. In my own personal life my world was crumbling. I was very focused on me, walking in a haze, trying to survive. I'm not trying to make excuses, that's just how it was. I wish I could go back in time and make many things right, but I can't change the past.
I think of Dan often and a smile comes to my face. What a fun, nice person. I can't imagine the loss that you and your family have gone through. My thoughts are with you all.
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